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5 years ago

Hello, 2013

◊ Posted by A β Pseudolonewolf
Categories: Art ExcusesPersonalSpecial Days
I've been avoiding Fig Hunter recently... Sorry about that. Due to various Life Event things recently, what with all the stuff relating to this time of year and everything, I've been unable to make any progress with games development, but I'll get back to it shortly.

Hopefully I'll be able to finish at least *one* game in this new year, but more importantly, I also hope to have my life sorted out... To probably go to university or something, where I can make friends and have somewhere to actually go. I feel like much of my slowness with game development is due to the fact that I'm so lonely and miserable and so on. So when I do get back on track, my work should benefit from that. And stuff.

But yes, hello. Maybe I'll have something more interesting to say soon.

For now, here's a thing that shows my progress with visual art this year, which I've been working on a whole lot after essentially neglecting drawing for three years. Maybe someone will find it mildly interesting.

5 years ago


◊ Posted by A β Pseudolonewolf
Categories: Excuses
Well, hello there. I've not posted an update here in a while... I've not got much work done on games either, I'm afraid.

I've started a part-time art course at a small nearby college place thing, just for the sake of getting out of the house if nothing else, so I've been preparing for that both by focusing on art, and by mentally conditioning myself; it's been a long time since I've really been around real human people, and I have that anxiety thing, so I couldn't just dive right in and expect to cope alright...

It's a part-time course, so it shouldn't distract me too much from game development. If anything, I'm hoping it'll motivate me more because I won't be able to work on games constantly, and we tend to want what we can't have a lot more than what we do have. Or something.

It'll take a while to get into the rhythm of things, though; I'm still feeling sort of 'shaken up' by the changes in my routine (I'm having to wake up many hours earlier than I'm used to, for example), and it's basically impossible to focus on game development as it is.

I hate all these constant delays to Miasmon - it was supposed to be out ages ago - but I hate the constant loneliness of my existence even more, so doing something about that has been a higher priority recently.

Anyway, that's why I've not updated recently. I'll let you know when I get back to work.
6 years ago

Weekly Update

◊ Posted by A β Pseudolonewolf
Categories: ExcusesWeekly Updates
Sorry, I forgot to write one of these last week since apparently I'm going through some kind of significant life crisis at the moment. It's all very emotional and I feel lost, lonely, and scared. I don't know what to do with my life and worry that I won't have anyone to share it with, whatever I do. I'm currently trying to improve myself in various ways in order to try to get out of a huge hole that I've dug myself into. It's difficult.

Unfortunately, it's hard to work on games when you're constantly scared and anxious, so I've been doing less than usual on them over these last two or three weeks, spending my time doing things of more immediate importance to me instead.

I have been doing *some* things on Miasmon, and there isn't much left now, but I have no idea how long it'll take to complete... I just want to get it over with, so maybe next week I'll try and get to a beta testing stage regardless of how I feel. I suppose I can start the testing phase before the game's actually finished, and hopefully it'd motivate me to add the finishing touches.

I'm sorry to keep disappointing, but I do have a life outside making games - feeble though it is - and sometimes it does take priority.